once I go grocery shopping.

My plan has been foiled.  Oh, how BADLY it has been foiled.  You see, today I was to start anew with my weight loss efforts.  I was ready mentally.  I was ready emotionally.  However, my pantry, my devastatingly badly stocked pantry and fridge, were not.

Often times we don’t realize how easy it is to silently and swiftly sabotage our deepest desires and wishes.  I’m seeing my own tendencies in that area today.  I have NOTHING healthy in this house.  No fruit.  Not even canned!  Very few veggies.  Lots of bready, carby crap.  No low fat ground meat!  No healthy snacks for when I get the “Om Nom Nom’s”.   No IDEAS on what to cook that would be healthy and that my family would also feel satisfied with in their bellies.

See, when I started on this journey 2 and a half years ago, I moved in with my parents.  Mom took care of all these things for me.  Granted, at the time I COULDN’T.  I could barely walk from the living room to the bathroom.  I was 468 lbs and dying because of it.  She took care of those details for me at that point.  I knew it was an amazing leg up  at the time, but I didn’t realize how difficult it would be to take over that portion of my weight loss plan when the time came.  I’m going to have to learn how to do it now.  Why does that scare me so much?


So, I am going to eat smaller portions of what I eat.  I am going to eat A LOT OF EGGS because I lose well eating them and they are probably the healthiest thing in the damn house.  I am going to get ON the damned treadmill today.  Until payday rolls around again, when I can actually properly stock my kitchen, I’m going to be very, very careful how much I eat and how much activity I do.

In the meantime, post some of your favorite healthy but yummy recipes in the comments for me?  I sure could use some help in that area!